Day 0144: Deceitful Desires

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img_12222018 July 01-Ephesians 4:22‬ ‭ESV‬‬

‘to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, ‘

https://www.bible.com/bible/59/EPH.4.22

There are some truths I want to expand upon and if I come across as a weaker man than so be it. I feel like this old self lead to many behaviors or manners that corrupt and lead to deceitful desires.

I was born a bastard child. My mother had me and she never told me who my father was. I tried to gravitate toward certain men to fulfill something that will always remain empty. Sure we all have a Heavenly Father and that is awesome, yet it is not the earthly father that so many others were granted. I tricked myself into thinking that the small amount of time with a man that represented an earthly father would suffice, but it never did.

Still, it took the realization of the hole in my soul and learned to work passed it. I had to come to terms that what I was doing was temporary and shallow. I will never have that relationship with a man. I will never have an earthly father. But I still have the history to redeem and I still have time to redeem myself.

Thanks be to God from the DFW Metroplex,
Solo Mon

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